i write a farewell blog to 2011

today i write a farewell to the year of 2011. 
it was a fair year. it was good, and simply, just an other year of my life, from which of course,
i'm thankful of . i thank my lord Jesus Christ for all the people i encountered this year, for my family, and their health, i want to thank him, our savior, for my blessings, and for protecting me always in all decision making and in all the tribulations i've been through. 


this year was the end of a hurtful relationship, that although i wish it were still alive, i am thankful it no longer is.  his name is Eric.  he meant the world to me, he was my world. through him i thought i found strength and happiness, but i was very wrong. nevertheless, i now remember him fondly. he is my past, and i thank him for making me strong girl. i thank him for teaching me how to love, (or so i think) and for being my best friend. 
he is truly an amazing boy, but he just wasn't for me. God only knows what will come next.


this year i got a great job, which i still have. i was blessed with an amazing job, that will allow me to expand my skills, and open doors to other great opportunities. 


i broke a heart this year, and God knows it was unintentional. i admire him for his persistence, and for trying to win my heart.  i told him no one had ever treated me like he did, which is true. it just so happens that you cannot say what the heart desires, or should feel. i tried making things work, but the feeling was not mutual. he is an amazing guy, so great, and the sweetest i've known. i hate that i now feel he sees me with other eyes; eyes of spite, and repent. i bet he regrets doing all that stuff for me. i feel he regrets ever sending me flowers or buying me the sailor scout collection..i just think that if he really meant what he felt for me, he would understand that i cannot make heart fall for him, if my heart is yet not healed, and just not ready to love. i wish him the best, and although i did what i did to him, i pray we can someday be friends; a clean friendship... i hope he forgives me; for i did nothing. i was kind and was sincere from the beginning. besides, he knows, we couldn't be.  take care. 


this year i am also thankful for my sister's, mother's, and father's accomplishments. they did great all year long. my mom maintained her job as well as my dad. my sister has an amazing job, and has managed to take care of me more than the usual. thanks to their hard work, they managed to surprise me with a trip to Las Vegas! it was my birthday present, and boy, did i have a blast?!. i thank them for always trying to make and keep me happy. they've seen me struggle with anxiety and depression...and i am now pleased to say that this year, it faded away a little. anxiety is hard to get rid of, but i can now manage it, and guess what?..i'm no longer depressed, i'm slowly but surely going back to who i was in the beginning. i now sing more, dance more, go out more, paint and draw more too.  i try to keep friends, and most importantly, i try to stay in touch. 


there's is this particular person i like to stay in touch with, and i'm thankful that he came back to my life. he knows who he is. he knows he's my dream guy, but as sure as he is to not want any sort of relationship, so am i.  i had lost all contact with him, until facebook reunited us once again. he is a bit of a jerk, but i only say that because he doesn't like me, as i like him...he actually is a sweetheart, intellectual, and almost perfect. so thank you facebook!


i'm thankful that my grandmother is not as sick as she used to be from her cancer, and that my old friend jessica, is better too. we were best friends, but time grows within people...i hope she is doing great wherever she is. 
ultimately, i am thankful for everyone and everything. i pray to my Jesus everyday, to make each day a better day, and the following year an even better one. 


FAREWELL 2011